So there we are... Tuesday night... It's small group and I need to cough up some sort of dessert. So I browse the pantry and find some good materials to whip up some cookies.
You may think this is leading to a cooking blog... but it's not. I'm not much of a cook... and I scour the world for easy, little prep time recipes (thanks L for that blog... I can't wait to use some of those easy recipes). Anyway... I get the cookie show on the road, and soon enough I'm looking at a couple ridiculously tasty chocolate peanut butter chip cookies. They are moist and SOOO good (Did I mention the 10 cookies I had already scarfed in dough?). Anyway.... I serve them to the group and the baby-sitters with a 2 cookie minimum. I can't be having cookies sitting around the house... and here's why:
After they were all gone and safely tucked in their homes... I put the cookies away in the container (after eating 1-2 "broken ones" because obviously those don't store as nicely as the others... or something). I counted a good 12 or so in there. The next day... before I even got to breakfast I was munching on cookies... WHY? Not sure.. I'm pretty sure they were calling my name, and it's hard for me to say no! Then at lunch...what's a meal without a bit of dessert to follow? Then after dinner? You get it... To say the least... they are gonzo... They were gone yesterday. How did I feel... GROSS and totally HORRIBLE.... Why do I do it? Because.. for some reason I think if I don't they will disappear. Or I'll miss out on my chance... Or I just LOVE sweets a LOT.... Or I feel I deserve it... pretty much all of those feelings at once.
I can be the first to say that diets aren't my thing. I can't do things where I just can't eat certain foods... But in the same way... I can't do things where I can eat anything... because I don't have portion control. I feel like... it's a learned thing when you're younger. As we get older we either have control and restraint or we don't. How do you try to break down your thoughts you've grown up with and call BFF and make new ones? What's the magic trick? Because... I don't want or need any more eating rules... I need mind transformation! How can I work my tail of... and run and lift and get workouts in every day without a second thought, but I can't contain myself from eating a whole package of cookies?
In the end... I praise God I even have food. I praise God that I have a body that CAN work off the cookies I ate the day before. I praise God for friends like you who can empathize with me and listen to my random rant....
Blessings
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You are so not alone in this! I pretty much grab a cookie or brownie or whatever else is there every single time I walk by them in the kitchen! However, when the school year starts, I have a little trick-whatever is left over after the event that I made them for (or even if it was just a weekend treat for us) I bring the leftovers to work and they're gone in minutes so that I'm not eating them all at home!
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