Couple topics....

I've been wanting to write for a while, but am hard pressed to find a moment most days. SINCE the husband and the bash are outside raking leaves (husband's idea) I decided to take this free moment to lay some stuff down!

1.) Lately I've been feeling as though something is wrong with me. Or I stink in many ways.... don't want to get into all the details why, but I know that I'm not the only one out there that has been down on themselves from time to time. Anyway I just kept thinking: what is wrong with me?!? Well, amazingly enough my mom sends me a devotion entitled: "What is Wrong With Me?" It was MEANT TO BE (as my sister and I like to say a lot- usually in a high pitched voice with a bit of an accent.... ask me to say it for you and I'll show you...) ANYWAY, as I read over the devotion I cried mainly because it was healing to my soul. It was SPOT on. So here is what it was all about (hoping this will be healing to yours soul as well). It talked about how we are constantly comparing ourselves to others and believing others are thinking poorly of us, when they aren't. For some reason we are our worst critic. But GOD tells us that we are fearfully and wonderfully made. The Bible study also talked about when Adam and Eve first sinned and discovered that they were naked. After that God was talking to them (PS how cool would that have been... jealous!) about why they were hiding, and they said that they were naked and embarrassed. Then God said: "Who told you you were naked?" Meaning... who told you you were not beautifully and wonderfully made? Who told you you were not a precious child of God? We tell ourselves, or compare ourselves, or let others make us feel like we aren't these amazing people, but God sees us as these amazing people, and it's high time you felt that way about yourself too. You are just the right size, just the right beautiful, and just the right everything.... because I know the God that created you, and he doesn't make mistakes! :) So try a little positive outlook on yourself (easier said than done). I've heard some cool tips like finding encouraging Bible Verses and hanging them up to read. Saying I'm beautiful each time you look in the mirror. Or just starting positive self thought (just because you forgot something doesn't mean you are a dummy!). Let me know how it goes! I'll let you know how mine goes....

2.) Mom guilt is the worst. Been dealing with that a lot lately. I know it never gets better, but how do you cope with it all?!?!

3.) I need some cute gift ideas for coworkers and friends that does not cost a lot. Ideas would be great! I have got some from pinterest, but ya know.... I'd love some others!

4.) Blessings!

Melts My Heart

As the Bash grows more and more I sit back and watch the magic. It's amazing how one day he cannot do something, but then the next day he can! I love watching his personality grow and develop. It's just so much fun. It's crazy how each moment of his life envelops my world to where nothing else could possibly matter more (not even pinterest). There are some things he is doing now that I just have to share because they melt my heart:

1. Any time we sit down to eat, he folds his hands and bounces them (telling us... let's pray), then he reaches for my hand and dad's hand and we pray together. It's AMAZING!
2. On that same note, he prays with us before bed. It's crazy to me how such an active and crazy boy can sit still and know that prayer is important enough to listen and sit. Every time we say it's time to pray he sits quietly and folds his hands. How humbling and touching for me!
3. He loves saying "HI" to anyone and everyone. If not once, then two or three times! ;)
4. He has learned sign language, but he does it in his own special way. So MORE is clapping and please is rubbing his pant legs. When he does them together it looks like baseball signs.... "Do you want me to steal second base Bash or give you more food?!?!"
5. Yesterday we were watching K-state play football, and dad was gone with the middle schoolers so it was just the Bash and I. As soon as the Wildcats came out on the field he said.. "dada... dada" Then later he did it again. Not sure if Husband wears a lot of purple and that is why he said that, or WHAT got him to say that, but it was SOOOO cute.

I could go on, but right now those are my very favorite! There are so many times where I think, THIS is why I'm a mom. THIS is why people have more kids, for more moments like this! :) I'm blessed to have such a great child. I'm blessed to have such an amazing husband that helps raise our child to be rounded and loving. What are some of your blessed moments?!?! Please share! I love hearing!

Vicious Cycle Must be Busted...

BEEP BEEP

time to wake up.... I could get out of bed.. OR I could stay IN bed and sleep for another hour... decisions decisions.....

BED....

It wins almost every time!

How do people get out of bed so early in the morning? EVERY morning? I can't seem to get my head off the pillow in time to get ready for work, let alone workout! Every night I tell myself.. "Quit being such an enormous baby and get your rear out of bed." Then morning surfaces and I'm still snoozing.

Here's what's NOT the problem:
I love working out.
I LOVE running.
I feel good when I'm done working out.
I go to bed fairly early so I can get out of bed

I don't know what would get me out of bed. But... I need to find it soon, because I'm not getting any lighter! HAHA!

Getting it done

if you're wondering what happened to the blog the answer is nothing. Turns out being a teacher, mom, runner, wife, praise band leader, choir participant, organizer of 2 small groups, a youth group volunteer, a workout instructor, sister, friend, a crazy pinterest follower, teaching blog follower, and a person that likes to sleep at some point it's hard to get this done!


I'm sure you are all nodding in agreement that it's just a crazy to try and fit it all in a day. I don't know what you do, but I've been waking up at 5:30 (or trying to) to get my exercise in... which leads me to my funny blog experience (hopefully I'll have more to come... sooner than like a billion years.. but no promises)

So... I've been running in the mornings around 5:30. I thought there were more crazies out there like ME who just really need to get their workouts in, and the only time they can possibly fit it in is at the worst hours of the day.... butt crack of dawn- o- thirty. BUT, they are either don't exist OR are crazy... but not crazy enough to go out in the pitch dark and workout so they stay inside or go to a gym...

There have been few encounters of people as I lurk in the night streets. But they aren't usually working out. Now, before I get more into my story you must know that I have a very active imagination that is WAY crazy. I frequently think someone is going to kill me in my sleep. Kill me when I'm getting into my garage. Kill me when I'm getting out or into my car anywhere I go.I've also had real thoughts when I'm driving in the dark that someone is going to jump in front of my car and order me to stop because they are being chased by someone that is going to kill them if I don't help... and I'm still not sure how that one ends...

ANYWAY, so as I'm running IN THE DARK my imagination goes crazy. A wolf is going to hop out of the field and eat me... you know... normal things. But when I see people out and about putting things in their cars, I also think.... I hope that's not a body and if it is did I just witness it? Did they see me? Are they are going to chase me and kill me because I saw them? So when this does happen I always have the urge to scream: "I DIDN'T SEE ANYTHING!" As I run by them... just so they know! :)

Share your thoughts, concerns, funny weirdness, or good workout stories.. the door is open for a lot here! :)